So I finally got a chance to sit down and watch Wall-E last week. The set-up in the beginning was a little tedious for me, but once they got to the space-ship and it showed the people who were constantly in front of a screen and all the kids getting taught by computers it made me realize how close to reality this comes (though if my husband was put in front of a monitor all of the time there wouldn't be any kids)! I remember reading the book "Between Husband and Wife" which is a really good book for couples, and the author points out that couples that don't have TV's have better love lives. Man I can attest to that. We didn't have a TV until we had been married four and a half years...it seems like after that time we are more bombarded with "other things" to do than to just spend time talking or being with each other.
Last night I decided to forgo my nightly "Dancing With the Stars" and I took Jared's book away from him and we just sat and talked. It was wonderful. I really love being with him and just bashing out thoughts and ideas but sometimes we get so "busy" with the "extra" things that we don't even take the time for the most important thing of all and that is being together. This pregnancy has been a strain on our relationship...not because we aren't trying...it's just been really hard on us for me not to feel very good. Thankfully though, I am suddenly starting to be huge I haven't been sick for almost two weeks (YEAH!) so that has really helped us.
It is wonderful that he finally has more "normal" hours so that we can actually see each other before it's time to go to bed and Christian has been able to spend time with his daddy too. Even though the move was difficult, especially being pregnant, and I feel a little like a lonely island that is at home all day waiting for adult contact, it's been really a good time for us to just be a family.
It reminds me of those Mormon-Ad's on TV. Family...isn't it about time?
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Being a Stay-at-Home Mom
Especially ever since I started the Spring semester where I had no classes left and nothing else to do but graduate I've been feeling torn between teaching and being at home with my boy. Because we're moving to AZ and I will have to do a lot of extra things in order to get a license there I have been debating getting my AZ license or just staying home with my boy. It drives me crazy that everyone asks me when I'm going to start teaching. I am very torn.
Why I'm so torn is I love teaching, I really truly do. I love the kids. I love figuring out various methods to convey ideas I love the moments when concepts click and student's have light-blub moments. I also love my little boy. I love watching him learn. I love it when he comes to cuddle in my bed every morning to wake me up and he asks for a baby sister and we talk about little things. This morning he was asking me why everyone has a belly button when they’re “kinda funny things”. I was trying to explain the umbilical cord that every baby needs to give nourishment to it’s growing body when it lives inside its mommy’s tummy.
I also sometimes feel like when I’m home days go too fast as apposed to the sometimes long days I had while teaching. It’s a difficult choice. One thing that helps me want to be with Christian is the moments when he comes to me and holds my arm and leans into me and says “You’re the best mommy”. What else could melt someone’s heart so completely? So for now, I want to be with my little boy.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
I'm Sick of Smelling!
For the last few weeks I have been getting really sick of our apartment. It's not that I hate it (because there are some nice things about it like "free Internet" and "free cable") but it's not the most pleasant place to live. The worse thing is that every time the people upstairs do their dishes my sink fills with stinky bubbles! It's totally gross!!! I can't stand the smell and I have to run the disposer every night and the stench just makes me gag and gag. Yuck. Everything else that already bothered me about this place like the cinder block walls just seems compounded with the negativity I feel about everything at this place. I've honestly been considering starting to pack I'm so excited to live in a place that has a nicer kitchen (everything we saw in Phoenix is 10X's better than what we've got right now) as well as real walls that I'm not fighting mold (the A.C. also has a peculiar smell which is pretty unbearable). I also can't wait to live in a place with just one more room than we have right now. I'm praying that there is an availability for a three-bedroom apartment when we move because I really need one!
So after all of my wishing I could stay in Utah I've decided that I'm more excited to get out of this apartment. This is good. If we did stay in Utah, I'd have to live here for at least another year and maybe 18 more months which I really don't know if I can take the gross factor much longer. Thank goodness Heavenly Father has my best interest in mind even though I was a little concerned that Jared wasn't offered a paid position here and only one in AZ. So, even though I'll miss my family and my friends, it may be really good for our marriage as well as our little family. We can be more cohesive as a unit and be able to create more traditions and memories just together since we've really have had a limit amount of time to actually do anything together besides family dinner each night which I pretty much have insisted on when it was reasonable.
So, at least Heavenly Father knows what I really need and right now it seems I really need to get out of this stinky apartment that causes me to gag spontaneously from the stench.
So after all of my wishing I could stay in Utah I've decided that I'm more excited to get out of this apartment. This is good. If we did stay in Utah, I'd have to live here for at least another year and maybe 18 more months which I really don't know if I can take the gross factor much longer. Thank goodness Heavenly Father has my best interest in mind even though I was a little concerned that Jared wasn't offered a paid position here and only one in AZ. So, even though I'll miss my family and my friends, it may be really good for our marriage as well as our little family. We can be more cohesive as a unit and be able to create more traditions and memories just together since we've really have had a limit amount of time to actually do anything together besides family dinner each night which I pretty much have insisted on when it was reasonable.
So, at least Heavenly Father knows what I really need and right now it seems I really need to get out of this stinky apartment that causes me to gag spontaneously from the stench.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Awake At Odd Hours
Well, I'm awake and it's 3:34 in the morning. I've been up for over an hour and since I can't sleep I thought I'd just work on a few things. I'm wondering why I keep waking up in the middle of the night but I'm thinking that it's probably partially because of the birds outside that are singing (arrg), the incredibly bright lamps lighting the path behind our apartment that my curtains just can't block out (arrg), or because Christian has had the habit of waking every night at about 2 a.m. for the past two months and I've grown accustomed to being awake at this hour. The frustrating thing is, I have no energy to deal with Christian when he wakes me up and tons of energy when I randomly wake in the middle of the night. I wonder why!?!
Right now I'm uploading songs from the CES video soundtracks onto my ipod so that I can (hopefully) find one for my lesson I'm giving next Sunday. My lesson (so far) is on receiving personal revelation. Right now I have 47 pages of information so I really need to hone down on what I'm going to focus on for this next week. What I really want to get at is that revelation is incredibly personal for each separate individual and that we have the responsibility to receive our own revelations and impressions without the right to judge what other individuals are doing because we don't know what they need. Only God knows us and all the baggage, experience, knowledge, wisdom, and capabilities we have as individuals. It is not fair to pit ourselves or others against our own experiences.
I hope that this topic will come together. I've felt really impressed to talk about these things since I was put in the Relief Society presidency and knew that I'd need to teach a lesson. I honestly don't think I'm the best person to teach this topic; I don't get revelations or impressions all of the time. I have, however, received witnesses of actions that I should take in my life. Some of these witnesses have been nothing more than feeling peace about a decision that I've made that just seems logical to the mind and right to my heart. I've also had dreams that have given me comfort, dreams that have prepared me for heartache, and dreams that let me see what I was blinded to. I have also felt the Holy Ghost guide me in ideas that pop into my mind of how to solve problems to questions, given me insights that were needed, thoughts to offer something to others, and most importantly given me warnings to keep myself or my family safe.
I really don't think that I'm incredibly spiritual as a person, especially since I became a mother it's been so much harder to do more than just survive some days. I do know that I have received guidance about my life and that I will receive further understanding as I try to be the best person that I can be and stay close to the Spirit. I know that many of the girls in my ward are dealing with various disappointments and are discouraged. I feel that understanding that we can ask for comfort and we deserve and have the right to receive revelation may help us as sisters. There are so many that don't even want to go to church because of the disappointment they feel in their own lives when they see other people receiving the desires of their hearts. It's so hard to see this happening because I can feel their pain for some of the very things that they desire but I am hoping that I can help buoy them up at least a little. I know that Heavenly Father wants to bless us and we need to just ask and His tender mercies will pour out upon us.
I really hope this lesson comes together in the next week. I've found so many good talks of preparing for revelation and such that I hope I don't want to give too little or too much.
Right now I'm uploading songs from the CES video soundtracks onto my ipod so that I can (hopefully) find one for my lesson I'm giving next Sunday. My lesson (so far) is on receiving personal revelation. Right now I have 47 pages of information so I really need to hone down on what I'm going to focus on for this next week. What I really want to get at is that revelation is incredibly personal for each separate individual and that we have the responsibility to receive our own revelations and impressions without the right to judge what other individuals are doing because we don't know what they need. Only God knows us and all the baggage, experience, knowledge, wisdom, and capabilities we have as individuals. It is not fair to pit ourselves or others against our own experiences.
I hope that this topic will come together. I've felt really impressed to talk about these things since I was put in the Relief Society presidency and knew that I'd need to teach a lesson. I honestly don't think I'm the best person to teach this topic; I don't get revelations or impressions all of the time. I have, however, received witnesses of actions that I should take in my life. Some of these witnesses have been nothing more than feeling peace about a decision that I've made that just seems logical to the mind and right to my heart. I've also had dreams that have given me comfort, dreams that have prepared me for heartache, and dreams that let me see what I was blinded to. I have also felt the Holy Ghost guide me in ideas that pop into my mind of how to solve problems to questions, given me insights that were needed, thoughts to offer something to others, and most importantly given me warnings to keep myself or my family safe.
I really don't think that I'm incredibly spiritual as a person, especially since I became a mother it's been so much harder to do more than just survive some days. I do know that I have received guidance about my life and that I will receive further understanding as I try to be the best person that I can be and stay close to the Spirit. I know that many of the girls in my ward are dealing with various disappointments and are discouraged. I feel that understanding that we can ask for comfort and we deserve and have the right to receive revelation may help us as sisters. There are so many that don't even want to go to church because of the disappointment they feel in their own lives when they see other people receiving the desires of their hearts. It's so hard to see this happening because I can feel their pain for some of the very things that they desire but I am hoping that I can help buoy them up at least a little. I know that Heavenly Father wants to bless us and we need to just ask and His tender mercies will pour out upon us.
I really hope this lesson comes together in the next week. I've found so many good talks of preparing for revelation and such that I hope I don't want to give too little or too much.
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